We Are All A Little Weird

I'm a weirdo.

2012-01-20T11:48:00.003+08:00

I really am sorry for not updating. (Ada orang tu merajuk kte tak update blog :P)

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Weird stuff I do;

I shampoo my hair once in two/three days and in that period of time I will not wetting my hair. Heheh
I sleep with his hoodie on or just by hugging it.
I always say I'm okay/I'm fine but I'm actually not and want you to keep asking me about it. If not, I'll be really sad. You'll never understand me. LOL
I can't sleep if everyone else is already asleep. So, I'll try to sleep before anyone else even if I'm not sleepy.
You can't look me in the eyes and I'll will not do the same. Why? Because I'm afraid that you will see what I've been through and what I really feel inside.
If I don't like a certain person, I will give them a certain look without me realizing it. Then my friend will say, "Kalau tak suka pun, tak payah ah pandang sampai macam tu duh." Sorry, but face can't lie :P
Even if I never tasted a particular food, if it doesn't look good, then I'm not tasting it. It doesn't taste good to me.
You can't lay or sleep on my bed before I go to sleep. Why? Because I don't want my bed and pillow to be warm. I want it to be just cold and nice.
I don't have any favorite song or band. So, don't bother asking.
What is weird? Is that I don't have any idea or thoughts on how to explain why I love you.

Pretty much.

2011-12-27T13:42:00.001+08:00

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What is your character in life? Popular, mean, kind-hearted? My character would be 'The Invisible'. No one notices me. I'm so easy to forget. People don't recognize me. I'm just invisible. I always tell myself to change, make myself outstanding. But I'm just gonna give up in the end because it is just not me. It's hard not to be yourself.

I may be the quiet girl in the corner. I may not say much. I don't speak up but what you don't know is, I do listen. I listen to every single thing. I observe everything that people do, their cloths, attitude, the way they walk. It is all interesting. I learnt from them sometimes.

I may say I'm 'The Listener' too. I love to hear stories, problems. Well, I'm not that good at giving advises but at least I can listen. To ease someone's burden. So that they can smile again and know that they are not alone. There are still someone who cares.

So, let's conclude this. I am The Invisible, The Observant and The Listener. I can be a superhero now don't you think? *wink

Yup, certainly, baby you're the one.

2011-12-24T15:13:00.004+08:00

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How can you know if a guy really loves you?

"If a guy really likes you, he would do whatever it takes to be yours. You see, there are two kinds of "being interested". One is, when a guy likes you but has his heart open to other girls. This is the kind that isn't so serious about being serious. The other kind of "being interested" is the kind that I want a guy to be interested in you. This is the kind whose eyes are set on you, and only you. No other girls. The one that sends you those long text messages on how much he means to you, gives you goodmorning and goodnight calls telling you to have a good day and to have sweet dreams. If a guy really wants to you to be his, he wouldn't be ashamed to introduce you his friends and even better, his family. I would want you to have a guy that when he looks into my daughter's eyes, he feels like he doesn't belong anywhere else but your heart."

We will be for life.

2011-12-17T17:33:00.000+08:00

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So on December 10th 2011 was our 3rd monthsary, sayang. Sorry for the late blog post. Been busy. Hihi

So, Happy 3rd Monthsary, Hairul Imran Ezzat !

The times we cried, times we laughed, times we fight, times we cared for each other, times we're sweeter than honey, times we're jealous, times we planned for our future and marriage. All this times I mentioned, I only experienced this from you. For making me feel very special, making me feel great, helping me to become a better person, teaching me on how to love, loving me with all your heartand for understanding me. I thank you baby boo. Boo, you know how much i love you and how you mean the world to me. I will never ever let you go nor give up in our relationship.I'm sorry if sometimes i hurt you, if sometimes I'm making you sad or worried, if sometimes i made you cry, if sometimes i'm the reason why we fight.I hope you'll forgive me sayang. Boo, Happy 3rd Monthsary. I love you so much baby boo. We will be for life.

Live with me.

2011-12-13T10:32:00.000+08:00

What is life without friends? Krik krik krik. Nothing right? For me, friends are my everything. I don't really like to make friends and my friends are a few but these few friends are the one who walk with me through thin and thick. I am seriously an awkward and I can say anti-socialize person. Well, sorry for being myself. *wink

When someone first met me or saw me, they'll say how snobbish I look like, how arrogant I am. Well, I think you got the picture now. But the truth is I'm just a serious person and shy and awkward and doesn't know how to talk to people. Is that my fault for being that way? *sigh

Anyway, get to know me. Try to talk to me first because, hey, I'll never make the first move. Trust me. Just talk and bare with me. I think you guys would love me after knowing me. Muehehe. No was just joking. But yeah, stop judging a book by its cover. No no no, not good. *grins

Ps. Life have been hectic these past few weeks and I'm kinda tired. My internet is block because I didn't pay for it for like 2 months I think. LOL.

I like guys who;

2011-12-03T15:36:00.001+08:00

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I'm cool and you just have to shut up.

2011-12-03T11:55:00.001+08:00

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I'm sorry for not updating for a very long time. you don't even miss me. So, yeah. Hihi

- For the last few days, I don't know what's going on with myself. It's like I don't wanna talk. My mouth doesn't wanna say anything. Something is wrong but I don't know why. Nevermind, forget it.

- I've been sick since last week I think. Didn't get any better. Maybe it's the weather or just because I'm really tired walking up and down that hill to my faculty. Do any of you kindly wanna gimme a car? Muehehe. I'm just kidding.

- Something happened recently in my life. It is something that I will never forget. Kinda a wake up call for myself. Alhamdulillah, maybe Allah loves me and wanted to protect me. Thank you Allah.

- Assignments? Hell yeah. Like a lot. Seriously. But sadly, I didn't even started yet. Come on lazy ass, do your assignments. Gahhh

- My hair is getting longer. Ouh, I wish my hair was as good as Kim Kardashian (Ehem, why her again?). Should I cut it?

- Been seeing my ex quite a few times. My friends were calling his name and all. Bro, chill. Panggil nama pun nak marah ke? Haish.

- My boy is more comfortable with me now. I mean he's opening up to me, share stories, laughing and joking around. I think that's a good start. I miss him every second of the day. Blablabla *forget what I just said. Hihi

- Dear seniors (Masscomm Part 3, UiTM Melaka), please, I need second-hand text books. I am really desperate now. Anyone? *sigh

- Everything is different now, compare to last semester. I miss the moment back then. Now everyone is different. We're not that close I think. I'm sad because I feel so alone.

- It's been two weeks already. I wanna go home. Eat home-cooked meal. Smile and laugh with the family member. Go shopping. I just miss my family.

That's all for the update. See you soon !

Sleep, please come to me.

2011-11-13T02:12:00.001+08:00

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I find myself hard to sleep nowadays. I sleep about 2-5 hours per day and I don't think that's fine. A big no. I just don't know why. I've been thinking about a lot of things. Whenever I'm ready to sleep, all sort of things come to mind and here we go again. I wish I could just sleep with a peace of mind. Oh Allah, please.

Like right now, it's 2.17 am. Bye.

You should be here.

2011-11-10T12:18:00.001+08:00

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Awak, Happy Second Monthsary !

You are my guardian angel
I am your princess
You are mine
And I am yours forever
Since the day we met
I will do whatever I can to make you happy
And let you know my love for you is true
It has been two months now,
You told me you love me and you wanna be mine
So I told you how I feel, I told you I love you back
Two months,
We are still happy and enjoying life together
Let us keep holding on tighter
And never ever let go
I am yours forever
No matter what it takes
We will take all trials together
We will face all the ups and downs, laughter & griefs
Hand in hand
I will admire you always
I will stay with you through band and good times
So do not ever fear about losing your princess
Trust me when I say "iloveyou"because I mean it from the bottom of my heart
I will never leave you sayang,
Until you ask me to.
I love you so much ♥

Dean List

2011-11-04T13:36:00.000+08:00

I didn't sleep at all last night. Skype and keep refreshing my inbox. Until...4 o'clock in the morning, 4 unread email was shown on the screen. I was so nervous to open up the email. Dup dap dup dap. I clicked and this showed up;

I was practically shaking at that very moment. Screaming I guess (sampai Yana pun sedar. Hihi). I couldn't believe it. Thank you Allah. Thank you for listening to my prayers. Syukur alhamdulillah.

ps. Baba, boleh la belikan Blackberry Bold 3 kan? :) Hihi

Me without you is equal to nothing.

2011-10-31T00:21:00.000+08:00

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Baby boo, why are you sho cute?!

You know one day I send him a MMS with a picture of my perfect wedding ring. It's not a big giant diamond ring or whatever people want nowadays. It's just a plain simple ring with the 'Infinity' symbol. I want me and him forever, if you know what I'm saying. So, he said, "InsyaAllah one day :)".

Okay, the cutest part is when he said, "I did some 'research'. Google about it. It's actually hard to find. If it's so hard to find, we'll just custom order the ring. It might be expensive, but it's okay." First of all, it's so cute of you trying to make an effort to actually do some 'research' about it. Secondly, it is gonna be expensive sayang and I was just saying. I was not serious. But you really gonna give me The Ring one day right? :')

You really are the one huh? Not because of the ring or anything materialistic. It's just little thing you do make me fall for you more and more. You're just adorable and I cannot not to love you. Hihi. Love you, sayang.

I am not a good person. Sorry to dissapointing you Umi Baba

2011-10-27T14:55:00.000+08:00

So, I am officially 18 years old on the October 25th 2011. I'm not that excited actually. I don't wanna grow up. Hihi. But thank you to all of you for the wishes. I'm not gonna list down all the names because there's too many. You guys, it's not about who's wish first and all. One wish and I'm already glad. Seriously, thanks a lot.

So, Yana did sort of celebrate my birthday with the balloons, cute tiny cakes, card, presents, and everything. Thank you, Yana. Every year you'll do something different and I appreciated it a lot. Terima kasih kerana melayan kerenah Yah. Me love you very much ♥ Hihi

But then, the best present I got was my boy. Seeing him on my birthday was the best birthday gift ever. I miss you already, boy.

So, that's it. I'm sorry I don't post much nowadays. Lack of inspiration and idea. Till then readers.

Tapi awak tak tau dan awak tak ambil peduli.

2011-10-20T14:13:00.003+08:00

This song sing everything that I wanted to say to you.

Am I wrong again?

2011-10-19T18:06:00.000+08:00

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I miss the past. I miss my high school years. You know, fooling around, got books to read, homeworks to be done, crushes, best friends. I miss it. I know that everything is changing but I just wanna go back there and have fun. Even just for a while. Growing up isn't easy. Lots of things to think of.

Sometimes, I'm mad. I'm mad at Peter Pan because he didn't show up at my window at night and take me to Neverland. I wish he did. I don't wanna grow up. I want to be happy. Always. I don't wanna think about anything. Just live my life to the fullest. It'll be great.

But that's okay. As long as I have Allah, my family, friends and my boy. I'll be okay. I think it's because of them that I still have the strength to carry on. It's because of them that I still want to wake up the next day and still feel their loves. I don't think I can go a day without them. You guys, thank you so much.

Baby that's you.

2011-10-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

I’m sorry baby for making you cry. Nothing’s sweeter than hearing those words from the person who hurt you and made you cry and at the same time, the person you love so much. It’s a plus when you get a warm, tight hug and you see that tears come running down his cheeks feeling sorry for what he have done to you. Guys don’t show so much emotions in front of girls. They feel that when girls see them cry, they’re weak. When other guys see them cry, they’re gay. But sometimes, you can see a real man behind those tears. You just have to appreciate those precious tears.

- wishartsolove

Dream can always be true right?

2011-10-14T16:14:00.002+08:00

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Every Girl`s Dream:

Get kissed in the rain.
Have that one hot kiss where your pressed against the wall.
Have a guy who thinks she`s the world.
Have a guy who holds on as long as possible when giving hugs.
A guy who whispers he loves her in her ears.
Have that moment where you just gaze into each others eyes.
When you cry, he kisses your tears away.
When you`re not with your guy he`s all that you can think about.
Wearing his jacket and every time you breath in, his scent surrounds you.
A guy who will watch any movie with her, no matter how teary eyed she may get.
A guy who squeezes her hand.
A guy who says he loves her and means it.
A guy who will play her favorite song outside her window.
A guy who is loyal.
A guy who will sing to her no matter how bad he is at it.
A guy who will kiss her on the forehead.
A guy who will call her beautiful or adorable. Not hot, fine, or sexy.
A guy who will never judge her for how she looks.
A guy who says cheezy stuff to her just to make her smile.
A guy who`s the same when he is with her and when with friends.
A guy who tells her everything honestly.
A guy who`s good with her family and introduces her to his family.
A guy who will always let her win.
A guy who stands up for her no matter who it is against.
A guy who calls her at night just to say ‘hi’ and see how her day has been.
A guy who tells her that her smile makes his day and makes everything better.
A guy who will sit on the phone with her when she`s sad, even if she`s quiet.
A guy who she can hangout and have fun with.
A guy who will just randomly call her for no reason at all, just because he misses her.
A guy who will hold her hand through the roughest parts of life.
A guy who would love her forever no matter the circumstance.
A guy who would not mind her wanting to get all dressed up and do herr make up for him. Even if he says he likes her better without make up.
A guy who runs his fingers through her hair, like he’s washing her worries and troubles away.
A guy whom she can be herself with and he will never give a care and would still tell her that she`s amazing to him.

- shesperfectlyhappy

Ouh well, I'm bored.

2011-10-12T13:08:00.001+08:00

How old were you when you had your first relationship?
Seventeen. Lame huh?
Are you taken/single?
I am happily taken.
What color is your underwear?
Like right now? Pink.
Do you like anyone right now?
Of course. My boy.
Ever had your heartbroken?
Iyeap.
Miss anyone right now?
Imran, you don't know how much I miss you.
Who was the last person you sent a text to?
My baby boo.
Last person to text you?
The man that I love the most, Baba <3
Last person you saw?
My cousin, Yana I guess.
What was the last thing you said to someone?
I should go to sleep now, sayang.
Who is top in your top friends?
Julia Johan
Why?
Because she listen to every single thing I said to her. Thanks, Julia :)
Who do you trust the most in your life?
My family.
Who do you love most?
Allah SWT.
Ever been in love?
What kind of question is this again?
Who has hurt you the most?
AHR. Even though, he doesn't even know it.
Has a tragedy ever happened in your life?
I don't think so.
Are you happy?
I am, right now.
How many good friends do you have?
About 6-10 person. I know, I don't have many friends.
Are there some songs you cant listen to because they remind you of someone?
Perfect two? I hate it. And Another Heart Calls? Makes me calm everytime.
Have you ever cheated on a partner?
Never.
Ever been cheated on?
Again, never.
Ever been told someone loved you?
Yes :)
Ever told someone you loved them and meant it?
Each day since 10/09/11.
Not meant it?
I did and I really am sorry :(
Ever had your heart broken?
Who doesn't?
Are you happy with where you are relationship-wise now?
Yes yes and yes. I'm more than happy now.
What is your idea of true love?
When he is your best friend, your soulmate, your boyfriend all in one person.
When they slip, do you think you can let go the small stuff?
I don't know.
Do you believe in love at first sight?
I don't.
Why or why not?
Never been in that kind of situation.
Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love?
I believe in that because that's what me and my bf did.
Do you believe that love can be found in bars or is that too much of a risk?
Risk.
Should people go to bars to find love?
Why? Love is everywhere. Let it find you.
Or should they go to places where people who like what they like hang out?
Love is everywhere.
Should men and women be expecting the other to buy the other gifts?
They should but not so much.
Who should wear the pants in the relationship or should it be a mutual give and take?
Give and take will be awesome.
Should chauvinists of either gender be in a relationship?
What?

The start of everything.

2011-10-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

Dear Hairul Imran Ezzat,

The day you told me you love me was the greatest, and happiest day of my life. I never thought I’d be given a chance to be loved by you. You don’t know how much I’ve been praying, and wanting for this to happen, and it’s been a month.You’ve heard enough of our silly love story; yes I thought you had a crush on me. Anyway, that doesn’t matter, coz I really liked you. I did everything I could to keep you safe; to make you realize that there’s more to life. I am always here, like I used to.

Love’s not a promise, it shouldn’t be. Promises break hearts, and I would never want that to happen to you. I love you, ever since the day I knew you. I love you even if you’re annoying at times. I love you even if you seemed dull when texting me. I love you because you’re simple. I love you because you’re funny, and I love making you laugh as well. I love you even when you’re mad at me. I love your family as much as I love my own. I love you for many other ways, especially ‘the way you love me.’ I love you for what you are, for what you can, and you can’t be. You’re imperfect, that’s what I love about you the most.

I’m not promising anything. I’ll just do my best to make you feel you’re lucky for having me, and same thing, of me having you…I’m not asking anything from you. You've given more than enough, your love. Like I used to, I am not expecting anything. I’d just go with whatever you can give, and accept it wholeheartedly.I just want you to know that I will never get tired of loving you. I am truly happy of the fact that I love you.There’s only one demand I have. At least, slowly, bit by bit, forget every heartache you've had. I cry as well, just by thinking you’re hurt. You should know that even if the world’s not making you happy, I’d always be here to hold your hand, kiss you, and make you smile, for you not to feel lonely.And remember that great feeling of mine? That is true. I feel like building dreams with you… And I feel like loving you for the rest of my days.I Love you, and in many other ways, I always will. ♥

Happy 1st Monthsary.

XOXO,
Me.

It's never too late.

2011-10-09T20:24:00.002+08:00

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You know what I really hate? People who doesn't now how to respect elder people. Yes, you may say I'm a hypocrite or whatsoever. I don't give a damn. It really makes me sad when I hear about young people who make fun of the elders. Well, in this case probably about grandchildren who have no respect to their grandparents.

You guys, no matter how much you hate them, how much they hurt you, how much they annoy you or they did something wrong to you. Just remember, without them, you are not even suppose to be here. You are not suppose to be alive at this moment. Or maybe doesn't even existed. Thankful anyone?

They are not well anymore. They are old. They can leave us at any moment now. Don't you feel sad about that? Do you think they just pretend to be sick? Pretend to fall? Pretend to not to be able to walk? Think. They don't have the strength anymore. They aren't us, young and powerful. No, they are not.

Do you ever think about what they feel when you treat them like that? Even if you just talk behind their back, Allah is listening. They are your parent's mom and dad. What would you do or feel if people hurt your parents feelings? Sad, mad, isn't it? I always cry when I see my grandparents. I always think that one day, soon, they gonna leave me. There no more them and what they always do to you. And just how much I'm gonna miss them if they're gone.

Respect them while they're still here and still can be respected. Cherish every moment with them. Make them happy, smile even if it's awkward. Try to make memories with them as much as possible. Before it's too late.

I'm grateful that I'm happy now.

2011-10-08T12:26:00.002+08:00

I think I've read somewhere that the more you talk about someone, the more you will fall in love with that person. Well, you may be bored. But I'm gonna talk about my boyfriend, again. Yes. I came across one photo while I was on Tumblr and it really suite me. Here it is;

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I had this exact conversation with him. And that is also what he told me. You know, somehow I realised how lucky I am to have you. You're beyond perfection. You make me feel beautiful even if I don't. You told me how I am perfect for you and even if I have flaws, you just love my imperfections. I don't care what other people think. They know our name but they don't know the real us, kan sayang? You will say those three words a thousand times a day because you know you really mean it. I know that we're gonna have our ups and downs but that's okay, Allah will show us the right way.

Oh Allah, thank you for giving me such a wonderful person after the long wait and sadness. Alhamdulillah ♥

Special something for you.

2011-10-04T23:11:00.000+08:00

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Dear HIE,

I never thought that I'll love you this much. You were a stranger to me and now you're everything and complete my life in so many ways. I love when you can accept me at my worst. Even if I look ugly or messy, you'll still stands beside me telling me how much you love me. When I'm not in the mood or I'm sad, you'll always be there with your words of comfort.

Awak,
You know what I really wanna do for you? I wanna make you smile, whenever you're sad. All I wanna do is grow old with you. I'll get your medicines when you're not feeling well. It could be so nice huh? Growing old with you, I'll miss you, kiss you, need you, feed you, even let you hold the remote control. Hihi.

Sayang,
Thank you for everything. I don't know what I'm gonna do if you're not around. I miss you very moment of my life. Please stay forever. Please love me endlessly. I love you. I really do. ♥

Hold my hands and take me away.

2011-09-29T11:51:00.002+08:00

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I'm not a talkative person. I really don't talk much because if I do, no one will listen (except Allah SWT). So, instead of talking all the crap that people talk, I watch. I watch every single thing that people do. Every details. All I do, is smile. Seeing all these problems that people been through, all the happy moments, the laughs, the smiles, even when they cry. When they laughed, I wish I could join them. Take a little bit of their happiness to fill mine. When they cry, I wish I could be right beside them. No advises or whatsoever. Just lend my shoulder for them to cry on. Take a little bit of their pain, so that they will be fine again.

But I've been thinking, do people around me think of the same thing? Do they care if cry, mad or moody? Do they care if I'm happy? I don't wanna be the only one to care. Sometimes I wish someone will come along, and they don't even bother to ask if I'm okay or I'm happy now, they just put their arms around me and tell me everything is gonna be great.

Why her, you stupid ?

2011-09-25T16:58:00.000+08:00

Hi readers ! My life has been good. Happier I think. So, my first semester as a Masscomm student will end soon and I'll be sort of senior next semester. Hihi. Excited about that. But but but, I'm not excited for my final examination's result. Damn scared. I thought I will do well and get DL and bla bla bla. Stop ! I was wrong. Everything is so not easy. Trust me. Not at all. Tsk tsk. I'm sad. Ouh, I wish I was more hardworking and quit playing around.

My finals will end on the October 3rd. Wish me luck guys ! Till then.

Paris, always a good idea.

2011-09-17T21:37:00.001+08:00

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I miss Besançon, France. The thought just came to my mind in the past few seconds. I miss it there. I mean, I seriously am. I wish I could just go there right now, right at this moment. Everything here is so fucked up. I have all this great people around me that love me but... I feel completely alone. Like no one is really there for me. No one actually really mean it when they say, "Are you okay? What's wrong?" Because I know, sometimes, they just don't care.

At least, if I went to France right now, I can free my mind and go far away from people here. Forget my problems for awhile. Meet new people who might be understanding, who knows right? I wanna be happy even if it's just for awhile. Too much stressful stuff going on and I just can't handle it. I'm tired.

Fuck. I'm tired. I'll just gonna cry in my room and go out smiling like nothing is wrong. Same routine everyday. Nice huh?

Ouh, sorry you guys for this emotional post. PMS I guess. I'll be okay. Nothing to be worried about :D

My insecurities kills me.

2011-09-16T15:09:00.001+08:00

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I wish I was approachable.

It feels like I’ve lost the opportunity of meeting some really amazing people just because I’m really hard to approach. And since I’m kinda shy, I always wait for people to talk to me first when I’m actually down to meet anyone. Then when I finally grow the balls to introduce myself, it’s a little too late since they’re too busy talking to someone else. People don’t know how to talk to me and I don’t know how to talk to people. Lol, I’m missing out.

- cdeeezy

Hey, I'm finally yours.

2011-09-13T12:16:00.003+08:00

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2111 ♥

100911 ♥

And I'm officially yours ♥

How sweet of you when you knelt down on one knee and asked me, "Khadijah Sabirah Binti Mohd. Sofian. Will you be mine, for now and forever?" I don't know how to react at that moment. All I can do was smile and say yes. Thank you for everything, awak. I appreciated every single thing that you've done to me. You know, for the way you purpose me, when we ran in the rain, and all. It will be my favourite memories. It was a good day. The best day actually. So, Hairul Imran Ezzat Bin Che Kamarudin, I love you ♥

Ouh, wait, watch this;

Fuck it.

2011-09-10T13:29:00.001+08:00

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I don't feel good about myself right now. I mean let's face it, everytime you're trying to improve your self-esteem, people around you brings you down, make fun of you, laugh at you or even judge you. How am I suppose to be better? I know you guys are better even the best and everyone know it but could you help me out?

One more thing, I'm not saying that I'm the good angel here or I'm just too kind and all. But just because I don't talk back, I keep silent about everything that people do to me and I'll just smile like it doesn't hurt, that doesn't mean that you can just do whatever you want with my feelings, ask me to do this and that, 'pijak kepala' and all. I'm not that good too, and you're not that bad too. But all I'm saying here is just a little respect will be enough.

You want me to list down some things that I think I'm insecure of? Nahh, it will be an endlessly list.

That's all I have to say. Till then.

Thought you should know

2011-09-05T00:15:00.002+08:00

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Let me do the talking.

2011-09-03T13:56:00.000+08:00

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I wasn't looking when I met you. But you turned out to be everything I was looking for.

- AM Kidd

I'm here, all alone.

2011-09-01T14:09:00.002+08:00

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September's Wishlist

#1 Get my assignments done and do it as good as possible.
#2 Study, study and study. Final exam is on their way.
#3 Spending more time with the most incredible guy ever.
#4 Stop trusting people easily. Actually, they don't really care.
#5 Read at least two pages of Quran everyday. InsyaAllah.
#6 Call Umi and Baba often?
#7 Prevent myself from talking bad things about others. Astaghfirullahalazim.
#8 Oh Allah, please let me be more confident about myself. Amin.
#9 Save money. Quit lepak-ing and eat. *Ouh, I wish :(
#10 I promise I'll love you more and more.

Huh? Is it Christmas?

2011-08-30T13:02:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya, loves !

Having fun? Hihi. I'm just dropping by to wish you guys Happy Eid ul-Fitr. All my wrongdoings? Do forgive and forget yaw. Enjoy your Hari Raya. Smile as often as you can. Ask for forgiveness. Go meet your relatives, don't spoil hari raya by sitting in front of your laptop :P

ps. Awak awak, Saya nak duit raya, please? :)

Please let me be the one.

2011-08-22T12:23:00.000+08:00

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I want to be the one he thinks about every night before he sleeps and every morning when he wakes up. The one that you will never get bored of. The one who can brighten up your day. The one who can make you smile. The one you see your future with. The one you can make silly jokes with and never feel ashamed of it. The one who understands you. The one you're completely in love with.

If I like you,

2011-08-21T13:43:00.000+08:00

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If I like you, feel special because…

I text right away once I get your text.
I answer right away when you call.
I get out of my ways to do something for you.
I think about you day and night.
I worry about you.
I spend my time and effort on you.
I’m here when you need comfort and love.
I don’t just like anyone.
I make time for you, always.
I put you on top of everyone else.
I make you a priority.

When life gets hard, I'll remind myself I got You.

2011-08-20T10:06:00.000+08:00

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Life is hard. Life is unfair. Life is cruel. But then, that is the main reason why we lived. That's the fun part. You know, you'll get excited about certain things and you'll end up crying because of it. Well, for me that's fun. If everything you want and everything are perfectly fine, there's no tears. No drama. No memories. Smiling all along. When will you learn from your mistakes?

You'll never get what you want. Trust me. I mean, there's always a reason why Allah do this to us. We never really understand why, but accept it. Allah knows best right? As for me, I'm not gonna lie, it is hard to accept the fact that I will not have this and Allah will say, "Nah, this is better for you." But I'm still learning and I've become better each day. That's why you should try it too. You'll be more relax, and enjoy life more.

Sometimes what Allah gave you will turn out to be the best thing for you. You'll be happier with it. Sometimes, what He gave you is only to test your Imaan. Whether you'll strong enough to face the test or you'll blame Him all along. See any difference? I don't. Because both make us closer to Allah. You know, you're happy and you'll say, "Alhamdulillah." And when you're sad, you'll cry and pray to Allah wishing for the best. See, there's always a reason why.

For now, I'm gonna let you think about it. I'm not saying that everything I say is true. But that's what I've been thinking all this while. So, have fun thinking, readers.

Yup, you're the one.

2011-08-18T20:53:00.001+08:00

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He may not be every girl's dream guy. He may not be the handsome good looking prom king. He may not be the most fashionable of the lot. But he took my heart :)

- Nurfitrah Abdullah

I wish my parents could trust me.

2011-08-13T15:42:00.000+08:00

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I wish that they’d let me go out with who ever and whenever, knowing that I’d be back home safe. I wish that they can understand that I know my limits and I wouldn't go out and do all the things they don’t want me to do. I wish they would let me do whatever I want, but still care and worry, but just not too much to the point where they get annoying.

I know what I’m asking for is selfish but take to consideration that you’ve taught me all I need to know to keep me safe. Have confidence that I’ll be responsible enough to make the right choices.

Don't make me fall for you all over again.

2011-08-08T21:39:00.000+08:00

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When I like somebody, I tend to fall hard. I can't take back what I feel or said. And deep down it just hurts like hell.

I don't know what this is called but all I know is I hate this thing or you can call it feelings. You know,

- When you cry every night in your sleep,

- You keep on thinking about that one person and suddenly realise that you can't have them,

- You pretend to be happy but it's actually the opposite,

- You try your hardest not to think of what you feel and move on but your heart won't let you,

- You try your hardest not to show your true feelings but it's so obvious,

- You love looking at him from afar but then your eyes started to cry,

- You feel like you wanna talk to him everyday, every time but you know that you actually annoy him,

- You get jealous of every girl who talk to him walk by him because you're scared that he might fall for her,

- You love everything about him even though he got a lot of imperfection, and

- You can't help yourself from smiling when you see him, or someone talk about him or he just randomly come to your mind.

You, don't worry. I'm trying my hardest to forget about you, to move on and to erase these feelings towards you. I won't be bothering you anymore. I won't annoy you anymore. I won't make you feel like you need to avoid me. But remember, I'm just trying. I'm not promising you that I actually can do it. Just don't make me fall for you again. Just don't.

O Allah, I love you. Forever and always.

2011-08-06T17:18:00.000+08:00

"Ya Allah, berikan aku kekuatan untuk memadam namanya dari hatiku. Alihkan pandanganku daripada memandang seraut wajah jernih itu. Jangan biarkan suaranya menjadi asbab untuk aku tidak khusyuk dalam ibadatku. Jangan Kau biarkan bayangannya memenuhi segenap ruang mindaku.

Hatiku sudah tidak sanggup menanggung perasaan ini."

- Unknown

Baby I don't care

2011-08-01T22:33:00.001+08:00

Dibulan puasa yang mulia ini, saya sesungguhnya tidak mahu bergaduh mahupun berdendam terhadap sesiapa sekali pun. Tetapi bila ada orang yang cukup tidak matang dan fikirannya mungkin kurang rasional, sanggup memalukan dan mencuba sedaya upaya untuk menyalahkan orang lain, saya jadi panas. Saya seperti mahu mencarut. Ouh tidak, imanku masih kuat. Khadijah Sabirah, bersabar.

Entri ini cukup istimewa. Cukup cukup istimewa buat Kamelia Narisya. Ya, anda. Saya tidak faham langsung dengan perangai anda. Kenapa mahu membangkitkan unsur-unsur pergaduhan di bulan puasa yang mulia ini? Tidak mengapa. Saya faham anda tidak matang. Orang lain yang salah tetapi kenapa orang lain dipersalahkan? Sekiranya anda tidak bersalah, kenapa anda seperti mahu lari dari masalah? Kenapa anda tidak menjawab soalan-soalan yang kami tujukan? Kenapa anda begitu gelisah? Saya ingin ingatkan sekali lagi. Saya tidak bodoh mahu pun kurang cerdik.

Saya pun sudah malas untuk berurusan dengan anda. Ampun maaf dipinta. Cukuplah sampai disini.

Salam Ramadan

2011-07-31T22:50:00.000+08:00

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Assalamualaikum dear silent readers.

I just wanna wish you Happy Ramadan Al-Mubarak. I am super excited about this. Hihi. And I'm hoping that you guys are excited too. So, I hope we will do only the good things and perform the terawih. It's gonna be fun fun fun. If I did anything wrong, do forgive me. I am truly sorry. May this Ramadan be as bright as ever. Amin and love you.

I think about you a little to much

2011-07-30T20:37:00.001+08:00

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I think I'm afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happen.

- Charlie Brown

That's what I said

2011-07-29T20:20:00.000+08:00

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I don't know what I feel right now. All sorts of emotion. Sad, mad, frustrated, happy. Everything that happened around me seems to bother me. I'm not sure whether I should be happy and hope everything will turn out fine. Or just let it be and maybe it's really nothing at all.

1. The moment when I realise that you actually recognize me and ask me to join you while you were eating.

What should I think about? Is it a good thing or it is just a normal thing that guys do? I'm happy. I really do. You know the moment when you ask me to come over and sit at your table. The face, your cute face and all. Ugh. I can't forget that. But but but... Is it nothing?

2. The moment when your close friend misinterpret what you meant and being emotional for no reason.

This is sad somehow. You know when you did everything just to make sure she's alright and don't hurt her feelings. But all she's doing is blaming you by accusing such thing. Just stop for a moment and think. Be matured. We can settle it down privately. Tak pyh nak canang cerita sana-sini. Malu je weh.

3. The moment when you're not confident about yourself because people around who keep making fun of you.

When I think about this, I'll cry. Yes. Not for sympathy but I feel like I just wanna yell and say, "Hey, I don't even care what your name is or even your bad sides or anything that is wrong with you. I never judge people because I know how it hurts. I never making fun of others because I know how it kills inside. I never laugh at someone because I know how ashamed he/she is. SO, STOP !"

Basically, that's what I feel right now at this moment. Exactly. I wonder if this world is ever gonna change. I wonder if someone like me is out there. I wonder if I can smile again, a smile that come straight from my heart.

Boy, just so you know;

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I am in serious illness.

2011-07-26T01:21:00.000+08:00

Hi you, the one who stole my heart without me somehow doesn't even realise it. I swear this feeling is sick. You know when you miss him every second of the day, you think of him and instantly feel the butterflies in your tummy, you'll wonder what he is doing and the most obvious thing I do is I feel like I wanna talk about him all the time. *blushing* I didn't mention any of these to my close friends because I know they will think differently.

It's so soon for me to think of any conclusion because you're just a friend of mine. My favourite friend actually. You know, I didn't have these feelings before. Not until you called me baby, sayang and say those three magical words. I know, I know and again I know that maybe you were just fooling around and making jokes at 1 o'clock in the morning. But I can't help myself from smiling for the whole day and felt so happy on that day. It was a special day, to me. Not to you, I guess.

I don't know what to expect and I don't think I wanna put my hopes too high because any possibilities can happen. Let's just pray that everything is going to be perfectly fine.

AMIN.

Current thoughts.

2011-07-25T00:59:00.000+08:00

Random thoughts

2011-07-21T10:04:00.000+08:00

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Everytime I started to type something, I end up erase it all. I will think about the consequences if I post what I want to say. What people will think if I write something like that. Are they gonna judge me? Or laugh at me? Or they don't even care? These questions will start to appear on my mind and I'll eventually push the backspace button. That is my problem, I think too much about every single thing.

Moving on. So, I was thinking about how people can change in a short amount of time. Yes, all of us change. But do we change for something better or something worse? And can it affect our surroundings, people around us, the situation? I always think back about what I've become and ask myself the same question. Are they gonna say, "See, how much she have changed. I like her more now." OR "See, how much she have change. She's not the same anymore." ?

Moving on. I always tell myself not to do something that will hurt you or your friends in the end. I'll always be the bad person. I still remember when I was in high school. I day dream and tell myself that I'm gonna be a kind person that will never hurt anybody, but instead people who are going to hurt me. None of that ever happen. I'm the one who always screw up everything. Ouh, I wish I was better.

Anyway, that's just some of my thoughts that keep on playing in my head. Just thought I should share it with you guys. Till then.

You are starting to annoy me.

2011-07-17T17:34:00.000+08:00

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I didn't realise it before but now, I do. I never really care when people talk shit about MASSCOMM. I'll just be like, "Ahh, biarlah orang nak cakap apa. Kita bukannya boleh tutup mulut orang. Yang penting kita bukan macam tu." But then, now, slowly I realise and somehow it hurts. You know the feeling when everywhere you go, people will look at you with disgust, the feeling when people say bad things about MASSCOMM (eg: Boo massscomm, Budak masscomm bajet je lebih, Fuck masscomm), and the feeling you get when they ask you what is your course and when you reply masscomm, they will say, "Hmm. Masscomm ke? Patutlah."

I'm not gonna lie that I don't feel nothing when people say things like that. Sometimes, I feel like crying. You know, as if we were such a bad thing. I mean come on, not all of us are like 'whatever-you-think-we-are'. Some of us actually still have our believes, still know where to be shameless and where not to be. Yes, we do talk a lot and sometimes we talk and laugh loudly, but that doesn't mean we want attention. That's just us.

I just want people to know that I'm not an attention seeker. I'm here to study and to achieve my dream as an editor. Please don't tag me along with those who you got problems with. And ouh, one more thing, we the masscommers are like brothers and sisters. We're like family. So, once you say bad things about us, all the other family member will feel hurt too. Just back off.

I love you like a love song, baby.

2011-07-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

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So, hi dear readers. I'm home. Yes, home sweet home. I'm not gonna lie, it feels good to be home. Got to sleep with the best bed ever, got the chance to watch the television, got to see the faces of my love ones. I'm smiling. Hihi. I wanted to post a video about my updates in Lendu but I was not wearing my hijab in that video. Sorry about that. I'm just gonna update here. So, here we go:

I'm very happy for my sayang, Elyana Amir. I mean at least you got 2 dates in a week. I called it a date. I'm jealous. Sudah lah. Hahaha
I've finished my CSC134 test. One down, six more to go. LOL
Sir Ahmad already know about Julia's crush, Reject. He even gave us some tips to approach a guy. It was funny somehow.
I got over my problems. I was ashamed and scared to confront him AND her. But I'm okay now. Thanks to the bestest of friends who never leave me alone when I'm down, Julia Johan, Kamelia Narisya and Elyana Amir. Love you guys :')
I'm happy now with my life. And I don't want to think about my problems. Just let it be.
I need to save money. I mean I eat a lot. I need to stop. Sorry Umi and Baba :'(

That is all, I think. I need to study and start doing my assignments. Bye, loves.

I know I'm not good enough for you.

2011-07-13T12:26:00.000+08:00

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To Umi and Baba,

Sorry that I want to go to concerts maybe once every two months instead of partying every weekend.

Sorry that I spend my money on skinny jeans instead of drugs like so many other teens.

Sorry that I spend a lot of time in my room on my laptop instead of getting drunk and hooking up with randoms.

Sorry that I sometimes ask to go to a friends house instead of just getting up and leaving without warning.

Sorry that I wear skinny jeans and hoodies out instead of short shorts and a tshirt that could practically be a bra.

Sorry that I blast music instead of trying to sneak into clubs.

Sorry that I like to eat lots of food instead smoking cigarettes and drinking all night.

Sorry that I’m not what everybody expects teens to be like these days.

- rockazi

I don't remember what it's like to be happy.

2011-07-10T11:56:00.000+08:00

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You know, it's funny when you never really get what you want in life. But instead, you get something that you never expect and sometimes you don't even like it. Here it goes to the part of, 'life is unfair'. It isn't unfair. It's just Allah's ways to tell you what is good for you and vice versa. You know, Allah knows best. Sometimes the things we want isn't the right thing for us and the things that we don't like is actually the perfect one for us.

Yes, I'm like one of you too. I'm not saying that can accept everything that Allah has gave me. In times, I do cry or even mad of what happened in my life. I do questioned Allah about this and that. And yes, I know I'm wrong. Oh Allah, do forgive me. Whenever I realised I was wrong, I will rethink and repent. Because we just have to let Allah do His work. It's either He is saying yes and give you want you want or He says no and give you something better or He says wait and gives you the best.

So, here's a few things that I wish I don't have in me:

I hate people easily.
I'm emotionally unstable.
I cry wayyy to much.
I always want what I can't have. (Ouh God, I wish I know what is the best for me)
I like being alone.
I fake a smile so that people won't see if I'm depressed.
I worry about unimportant things.
I always wonder about other people thoughts about me.
I don't really have the self-confidence.
Mood swings.

These are the things that I hate about myself. But on the other hand, I wonder if I'm wrong to questioned what I've become. Again Allah, forgive me.

Sadness is my bestfriend.

2011-07-08T14:00:00.000+08:00

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Nobody knows how many times I've faked a smile, how many times I've cried, how many times I've been hurt. Nobody knows how many times I've had to hold back my tears, how many times I've been let down, how many times I've been walked out on. Nobody knows how many times I've felt like falling apart but I keep it together for those around me, how many times I've been kicked when I was down, how many times I scream. Nobody knows how many times I've forgotten how it feels to be happy, or how long I've been waiting for things to get better. Sometimes I wonder who knows the difference between how I pretend I feel and how I truly feel.

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Thank you for making me happy.

2011-07-05T13:28:00.000+08:00

The crazy us. Haha. Kbye :D

It's my own stupidity

2011-07-02T12:26:00.000+08:00

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Have you ever felt like your heart shattered into pieces?
Have your ever felt like your hopes are too high and in a blink of an eye, it smash up on the ground?
Have you ever felt like you're too stupid for loving someone who doesn't even know you love them?
Have you ever felt like you're ashamed of what you're going through?
Have you ever felt like no one ever gonna like you?

Nuff said.

Read this !

2011-07-01T14:03:00.000+08:00

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EVERY GIRL IS GOING TO LOVE A GUY WHO WILL NEVER LOVE THEM BACK.

And as she sits there crying because he will never want her, she doesn’t realize that across town there’s a boy thinking of her. A boy who would give anything to see her smile, make her laugh, or kiss her in the rain. A boy who would never make her cry because he doesn't want her. But she will forever be chasing the boy who will never love her, instead of giving her heart to the one who deserves it.

- strawberrytelle

Forgive me for my wrong doings.

2011-06-27T09:48:00.000+08:00

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Thankful. One word can describe so many things in so many ways. I am thankful of what I am right now. I'm healthy, thank you Allah. I still have my parents beside me, thank you Allah. I got the chance to study in UiTM, thank you Allah. Every single thing that you gave me, Allah, thank you :')

I just wanna share something, a story actually, that my dad told me.

So, there's this man. He's now in shocked. Traumatized. He can't do nothing. Wanna know why he's like this? This guy had three children and they are around 3, 4 years old and the youngest is a baby. One day, his wife bathed the youngest one. The other two was playing around. Out of nowhere, these boys played with 'keris'. Yes, the real 'keris'. They played and played until the brother stabbed the other one. His wife and himself panicked. They instantly wanted to go to the hospital. While he reversed his car, BANG, a loud sound was heard. And it was his son, he was hiding behind the car because he was scared. The boy died right there. Then, at that very moment, his wife realized that she left her daughter in the bathroom. She went there, and she saw the baby is already dead.

See? In just a few minutes, Allah can take all the things that He gave us. The point here, be thankful of what we had. Never forget to 'zikir'. And don't be too proud of what we have because it's all belongs to Allah.

Touched.

2011-06-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

This song is so good.

Depression Increases

2011-06-22T11:56:00.000+08:00

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I don't know why but everytime my mom calls, I will always feel this sadness that I can't explain. It's like I will automatically cry. The truth is I miss them, my family. I miss seeing their faces, their 'perangai' and all. Ahhh, rindu. I'm not gonna lie, I got a lot of friends here who cares for me and loves me for who I am. But somehow, I feel so alone. It's not the same without my family. Not the same at all.

ps. I'm sorry for not writing like I used to. I'm kinda busy plus I don't have ideas about what to write.

I've found it.

2011-06-19T22:44:00.001+08:00

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I wanted to say this all this while but couldn't find the right words. Thank God, this blogger has the same thought as mine.

"I don't want a serious relationship; i'm a teenager, i want someone who i can act like a complete dickhead around, that can spend hours just talking about the pointless things. i want someone who makes me laugh and who i can plan stupid things with that'll never happen because i'm sick of seeing these movies with the girl falling in love with the perfect boy. who wants perfect? i want adventure. i want someone i can tell my secrets too and waste my weekend with and act like we're 5 years old again. i wanna have fun."

- Nadira A.

#2 I love you.

2011-06-19T09:12:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Bapa, Baba !

Baba, sorry lah kalau Yah ni keras kepala. Tak pernah nak dengar cakap.
Baba, sorry lah kalau Yah ni ego sangat. Nak menang je.
Baba, sorry lah kalau Yah ni manja terlebih. Tak sedar diri anak sulung. Hihi
Baba, sorry lah kalau Yah ni boros orangnya. Asyik-asyik minta duit.

Baba, terima kasih sebab mendidik Yah menjadi insan yang berguna.
Baba, terima kasih sebab selama ni kalau Yah nak apa-apa, Baba beli je.
Baba, terima kasih sebab marah Yah. Kalau tak, sampai sekarang masih buat perangai.
Baba, terima kasih untuk segalanya.

Akhir kata, Baba, I love you, you're the best Baba in this whole wide world and I'm very thankful to have you as my Baba ♥♥♥

I love you.

2011-06-18T20:02:00.000+08:00

When you feel you are alone in a crowd,

When you feel no one can understand you,

When your love is rejected by others,

When you hate your life,

Just close your eyes see her face,

Who loves you more than anyone else,

Who cares for you in loneliness dies for you when you cry,

She is no one but your sweet loving Umi,

Love her more than anyone else in this world,

Because only her will be there for you all the time.

Let me in.

2011-06-18T10:57:00.001+08:00

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Next week is gonna be a very hectic week for me.

I have to do a presentation with my group about Semantik. It is actually hard to understand and I'm scared the lecturer is going to be mad at us. Please no.
My roommate which is a senior asked me if I want to be her model for her photography class. To gain experience, I said yes. So, now I'm quite nervous. Wish me luck. Hihi
I have to hafaz Surah Yassin.
And lots and lots and lots of assignments waiting to be done.

Give me a break will ya ?!

ps. I have my own ego. So, watch out.

We're done here.

2011-06-14T21:25:00.000+08:00

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"Mereka yg meninggalkanmu di masa lalu tak akan mungkin ada di masa depanmu. Lupakan mereka, temukan seseorang yg lebih baik."

- Pepatah (Twitter)

Things happen for a reason

2011-06-13T20:50:00.000+08:00

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Random-est thing;

I'm not one of you. I'm not gonna change myself just because I didn't fit in. I'm not gonna fake around, talk a lot, speak loudly or even try my hardest to impress, just because you tell me so. Yes, I'm not popular and sometimes people don't even notice me. But, I am who I am and I won't change that. I may be changing myself in the future for the better. But for now, just let me be me.
I don't trust nobody here. No matter how 'hot' or pretty you are, that doesn't give you the permission to 'pijak kepala orang'. Talk to me only when you got problems, ask me to do this and that or being a sleeping partner. Your attitude miss, is unacceptable. Go fuck yourself.
I miss my family, like a lot. I miss my mom's cooking. I don't like the food here :'( I miss Danish. You know when he always ask me to accompany him when he wants to sleep. I miss Baba too. Ahh, so wanna go home.

K, I know so random. Bye.

All about university.

2011-06-09T10:04:00.000+08:00

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My classes so far;

COM161 = Tons of assignments. Luckily in groups. The lecturer is fine, she's pretty. But we only got to meet her once a week. So, 3 hours straight? Idk about that.
A lot to memorise. Yes, a lot. Good luck to me !

BEL120 = Sir AA. Nice, handsome and cool. BAHAHAH. Meet him 3 times a week. Nice, thanks a lot :D
Pretty easy. Not boring at all.

BBM111 = She talks a lot. Kinda strict. She likes to laugh and give us assignments. Although it's just BM but it's quite complicated.
BM saya B+ je. Susah hati.

CSC134 = Got 2 lecturers. One is okay. The other one tak pernah jumpa lagi. So, hopefully she's okay too.
This subject also have a lot to memorise. Alaa, computer je kan? XD

COM165 = The subject I hate the most. Well, not because of the lecturer but because I'm scared to talk in public. It's scary somehow. I need to overcome this fear.

CTU101 = Once a week. Never met the lecturer yet. I hope it's fun.

KO111 = I got Kesatria. I'm excited 'cause next semester I will be able to choose other activities. But then, now I realise how tough is it and kena ambil darah. Bagus -.-

Done.

I'm going through a hard time.

2011-06-08T17:30:00.000+08:00

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Today, at 0900 in class, I realised something. I miss my best friends. I looked around, everyone smile and laughed, everyone have their own buddy. Then, I realised that I miss Nur Liyana Kamaruddin. She sat besides me in class. She was the one I spoke to everyday about my ups and downs. She'll listen even though my stories is kinda boring. In class, I was the one who disturb her and all. I always asked her about homeworks and copy her (HIHI). Yanaaa, I miss you. I miss the laugh, the fight, the tears we had. I miss it all. Do you miss me?

What is fun?

2011-06-07T16:13:00.000+08:00

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So, life in University isn't that fun actually. A lot to think about, a lot of things to do by yourself and a lot of people with different personalities that you need to handle. It is okay and fun sometimes but you know... Nevermind.

It isn't that fun when your room isn't fully yours anymore. Well, I know sharing is caring but yeah, I'm still trying to fit in. It isn't that fun when you go to the bathroom and the smell is 'super fine' and it's 'super clean'. Ahah, not fun. Not fun at all. It isn't that fun when you have to walk everyday with the hotness of the sun. I'm skinny now. LOL.

Anyhow, I'm still enjoying it. For example, my MDS week was fun. Especially with all the drama and all the friends that I met and all those handsome Abang PM. Hihi (Okay, dah menggedik) MDS week was really tiring. I used to complained everyday but now, I miss it. I really do. Another example of fun, when you hang out with your new friends and they tell you their funny stories and experiences. It really make me forget for a minute about my problems.

So, everything is fine. Wish me luck and pray for me. Byebye. XOXO

ps. I miss Abg Bubu, Abg. Fikri, Abg. Haiqal and all other Abg and Akak. Seriously :')

It's time to say goodbye.

2011-06-06T12:19:00.000+08:00

Dear H,

Happy Belated Birthday. Even though I know you will never read this I still want to show how much I care. So, yesterday was your birthday. I prayed to Allah that you will be happy for the rest of your life. I prayed that you will always smile that beautiful smile of yours which actually made me fall for you. I prayed that you will have someone who will care for you and love you more than I already did. Just so you know, I prayed for you everyday of my life.

Yes, I admit I texted you just to wish happy birthday. When you replied, I was so happy and smile all day long even though you just said 'Thank you. Ni siapa?' You still made me smile. Thank you for at least replied to my text. I imagine you on that day. How bright is your smile. How happy you are when all those girls and friend of yours wished you happy birthday. Trust me, I can imagine that.

So, I've prepared a wonderful present for you but I don't think you will ever receive it. Hee. So, I'll keep it. Happy Birthday again. Having you as a crush for 3 years is such an interesting memory of my life. So, yeah thank you :)

Kerinduan Melanda

2011-06-02T12:08:00.000+08:00

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Dear silent readers, I miss you guys. No joke :'(

You and I will be enemies.

2011-05-19T08:49:00.000+08:00

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Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

1. Family of course. All four of them. Every single one of them. K, k, enough. Hihi

2. Liyana Embok. You know you're listed, so don't ask me why :P

3. Adriana Nadirah. Bestie for life right?

4. Nurliyana Kamaruddin. I miss talking to you. The gossips and all, bila nak jumpa?

5. Ann Nadia. Just know her but she really understand me and MAYBE we gonna study together. Right?

Forgive me for my mistakes

2011-05-18T08:23:00.000+08:00

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Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

1. I wish I never move out from SBPI Gopeng. It was a big mistake.

2. I wish I was very hardworking and didn't played around when SPM was around the corner. Now, look at my result.

3. I wish I remember and cherish every moment of my childhood. And now, I miss it terribly.

4. I wish back then, I treated my bestfriends perfectly. I used to yell at them, ugh, I am so sorry.

5. I wish I was close to my mom and I can hug her and tell her stories anytime I want.

6. I wish I didn't met you, know you, fall for you, and care for you.

You crossed my mind all the time.

2011-05-17T08:13:00.000+08:00

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Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1." Am I gonna die soon?"

2. "Why do I feel so empty? Like no one is there."

3. "I'm so sorry for hurting you."

4. "Please, Allah, I really want to study Masscomm in UiTM."

5. "Does anyone ever care for me? Or they are just fake and never really care?"

6. "Hair, grow faster and please be beautiful."

7. "I'm not good enough, I'm not smart enough, I'm not pretty enough. There's nothing enough about me."

Can you?

2011-05-16T08:24:00.000+08:00

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Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1. You have to pray 5 times a day and know how to read the Quran.

2. Love kids. Especially when you play with them, I swear that is so cute.

3. Once in awhile, wear Baju Melayu. I love seeing guys wearing it, TURN ON. (LOL)

4. Don't be so desperate. Be hard to get. And give me time to miss you. I mean if you call and text me everyday, lama-lama muak juga.

5. Watch out your words. Once you being mean to me or your words can kill me, then your not my type at all.

6. I like guys who knows how to dress up. Not in a girly way of course.

7. I like caring guys. When you show how much you care, then you maybe on my list.

8. Brave enough. If you like me, then tell me. Don't be too shy or whatever it is. As a guy you should start the move. Chase her.

That is pretty much me.

2011-05-15T17:55:00.000+08:00

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Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

1. I am not a talkative person.

2. I like Justin Bieber.

3. I am tall.

4. I really like to push people away.

5. I'm paranoid about death.

6. Love fashion but hardly can afford to buy new cloths.

7. I can't sleep if everyone is already asleep at night. I need at least one person to stay up to make me fall asleep.

8. I hate all the so called air traditional. Haha. Such as, Air kelapa, Air Mata Kucing, Air Tebu and what so ever.

9. I'm the kind of person who doesn't like to be hated. I feel guilty.

I feel good.

2011-05-14T08:36:00.000+08:00

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So, I am kinda lazy to update my blog. So I'm gonna do 10 days Challenge. I just found it in Tumblr. I'm gonna start now.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. I wish you knew the main reason (the secret actually) why I walked away. I read your text & look at your photo everyday, before I sleep, in the morning when I wake up and whenever I miss you. Just so you know.

2. Thank you so much you guys for everything. Since the day I was born until now, everything you do for making me happy. I love you guys.

3. Even though I'm not a good friend to you, you're still there for me, to comfort me whenever I've got some issues. You try your hardest to cheer me up. I wish I could appreciate you more.

4. I don't know what I feel towards you anymore. 3 years is a lot. Maybe I've changed. I just wanna say that I hope you notice me earlier.

5. I don't know why whenever I'm around you, I feel like I'm pissed off, I'm really mad and wanted to yell. Thank God I never do those things to you. I'm sorry. I know I should respect you more.

6. I noticed you like me so long ago before someone told me that you like me. I noticed that. I hope we can be good friends for now.

7. We gonna to two different way. You're gonna be in Perak and I, Melaka (maybe). So, best friend, I hope you'll never forget me. I hope you'll never change. I will be missing you very much.

8. Thanks for being a good big sister to me. Thanks for always make me laugh. Thanks for sharing your stories. I'm gonna miss all of it. Don't be sad. Danish kan ada :P

9. You're like my twin. We love the same thing, same songs, and all. You always help me with my problems. You give me courage to go on with my life. I hope we can be great friends. Thank you so much for every single thing.

10. Take care of yourself in Melaka. Your phone, keep it safe. Don't eat too much, you're gonna be fat in no time. Cheer up, boarding school isn't that bad :P

Tidak mengikut susunan. So, jgn kecil hati. I love everyone of you in the list. You guys are important to me :)

ps. My interview was okay. Do pray for me.

Interview again? God, no.

2011-05-11T08:30:00.000+08:00

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So, I got good news. Thank you Allah for giving me this opportunity. The good news is my dad help me out and I got the interview for Diploma Masscomm. Thank God. I'm kinda scared right now 'cause this is serious matter to me. I need to pass this interview. Wish me luck you guys !

Btw, there's 2 question that I'm not sure how to answer it. Can you guys help me out?

How can you contribute to this program (masscomm)?
Why do you think you're qualified for this program?

Please help me out. Thank you. Bye :)

Saya sayang Umi saya sangat-sangat.

2011-05-10T12:21:00.000+08:00

Last night I cried again and again and over again. At first, I cried because of my dad's words. Somehow, my heart hurt so much to hear those words from my own dad. Baba, I know I'm not a good daughter and I'm so dumb. I know. But your cynical words made me cry none stop.

Then, Umi help me out with the e-rayuan thingy. We couldn't decide anything at all. That's when I started to cry. This time in front of my mom. I couldn't help it. I told her that she doesn't understand what I feel right now. Being a failure isn't easy. She just told me to try and asked Allah to guide me, then she walked away. I thought she didn't care. I was devastated.

So, I continued crying until 2200. Couldn't sleep 'cause it's been so hot. Sweating all over. Slept at 2300. Woke up at 0200. Slept again. Woke up at 0400. Sleep again, then woke up at 0645.

Next time I know, Umi send me this text message;

"Umi doakan Yah dapatlah masuk Diploma Masscomm ni.

Tak sanggup dah tengok Yah asyik nangis je."

So, as you all already know, I cried again after reading that text.
Umi, thank you :')

2011-05-07T08:32:00.002+08:00

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I need some, I mean a lot of sleeping pills. And ouh do you have a knife? A nice one. I'm thinking to cut myself.

This is the end of the world.

2011-05-06T14:44:00.000+08:00

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Somehow, I am tired of crying. (Just cried) I don't know what my future is anymore. I feel like it is all ruined. I checked my UPU result with a lot of hope, with a big smile on my face. But the moment I clicked the button 'Semak', the word 'maaf' showed up. I couldn't think of anything. I just cried. I know that this isn't the end of the world and you guys can keep all your motivational speech to yourself 'cause I'm not in the mood to read or listen to them.

My parents doesn't want me to apply masscomm, so I didn't put it in my first choice even though it was my dream. Then, everybody said I was good in English, so I tried Foundation Studies in TESL (My first choice), got the interview but I guess I'm just not that good in English. Remember my dream to study in France? Well, that's ruined too 'cause I didn't even get the interview.

All the things that I thought was my future, my option, my dream. Just fade away. I feel like there's nothing I can do anymore. Ouh, yeah I got Matrikulasi but I'm so stupid especially in science subject. They say matriks is so hard. I don't think I can do it. Yes, I know that there's 'rayuan', but all the course that I want isn't available anymore. What should I apply?

Dear Allah, do guide me. Please tell me what's the best for me. When I cry, comfort me 'cause I don't have anyone else to be there for me. Just You. When I feel like giving up, please give me strength to go on. When I'm mad, please calm me down. Dear Allah, I know that You're listening to me. Do tell me what I should do right now. Amin.

You

2011-05-02T14:59:00.001+08:00

Just listen to it and please pay attention to the lyrics. It means a lot to me.

And btw, Prince Harry is officially mine.♥

I hate how I've been lately.

2011-05-02T08:40:00.000+08:00

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Getting pissed off way too easily, taking some things way too seriously, and making a big deal out of everything. Committing to favors that people ask me to do, but end up not doing shit. Stupid ass mood swings that didn’t seem to exist as much before. Thinking way too much, analyzing every little thing you fucking do, when I know in reality it doesn’t mean anything at all.

- markmejia

New boyfriend maybe?

2011-04-28T16:59:00.000+08:00

Je vous presente mon petit copain (HIHI) ;

He's cute ha? I know, I know. Well, he's mine now. Say hi to him :D

I'll be back

2011-04-27T09:08:00.000+08:00

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Everything is going wrong lately. I couldn't sleep well last night and the past couple of days. I feel noxious, I feel cold then hot, I wake up every deux heures, it's like something is wrong. The question is 'What the hell is wrong?'

My nose bleed just now. Well, if you know me, I will freak out whenever I see blood. Thank God there's nothing serious. I just lay down and put some tissues in my nose. Tadaaa, done.

My sister will be back this Saturday which is suck. Because I have to go early for my French class and I don't know if they can make it until at least 1800. I told Umi that it will be easier if I didn't go to the class, but she insist. Hello, I'm the one who will be alone in Bangsar ! -.-

I don't know why but I feel like I want to yell at everyone around me. My mood swing is bugging me. Any idea how to handle stress?

I want to live forever besides you.

2011-04-26T15:44:00.000+08:00

I always try to be nice to people. I try not to hurt their feelings. I try to talk nicely. I try to fake a smile. I try it all. But I want to know why people misunderstood it.

Sometimes they say, I'm a fake and hypocrite 'cause I'm too nice. They say I'm really good at acting and all. Why?
When I'm being too nice, they even take advantage of my attitude. (Pijak kepala la bak kata orang) Why?
I try not to hurt you but all you do is hurting me. There are times when people say or criticized me but their words can kill me sometimes. Can't you just used proper words? People hurts.
When I smile, can you stop for awhile and think, "Is that a fake smile?" Just, can you? The smile on my face isn't even real, please realize that. I appreciate it a lot.

Do you ever try to be nice to me?

We're Young

2011-04-26T08:27:00.000+08:00

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I'm sick and tired of being the second choice. When is gonna be my turn?

Don't Cry

2011-04-21T20:04:00.000+08:00

LOVE seems to change so easily,
In place of our own greed, a painful scar is left,
Gotta let you go
And please don’t cry

I guess I was not really the person for you
I couldn’t hold back my stupid heart
Which pained you
And please don’t cry

Here is the end for the both of us,
And until the world would allow our love then,

It’s okay dear please don’t cry,
This long journey is about to end.
But someday, we will meet again,
In the next life, we will see each other again

Everyday, we are blinded by our anger,
What we were fighting about every minute,
I cried every night,
Dear I cried

All the long nights
I stayed up late crying,
I spent them all alone
Baby I cried

Sometimes, when tears come to me,
I remember our beautiful memories
I hope that you won’t be hurt more,
And please don’t cry.

- PARK BOM - DON'T CRY

Buat adam yg mencari cinta hawa & buat hawa yg menanti cinta adam.

2011-04-20T13:49:00.000+08:00

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Untuk adam.
Andai mahu mencari hawa.

1. Jgn dilihat pd purdah mahupun tudung semata-mata kerana hawa hari ini tidak lagi seperti dulu. Lihatlah pd telapak tgnnya, andai mudah telapak lembut itu hinggap pd kulit lelaki lain tanpa lapik, fikirlah semasaknya utk menyuntingnya. Sesungguhnya memegang bulu anjing itu lebih baik dari menyentuh kulit lelaki atau wanita yang boleh kita kahwini.

2. Jgn dilihat pada baju labuh mahupun jubahnya semata-mata. Lihatlah pada sebujur bibirnya. Andai kata-katanya berbisa atau kuat suaranya. Fikirlah semasaknya andai hati masih teringin menyuntingnya, khuatir kelak dia membawa fitnah buat si suami. Menabur buruk diri si suami.

3. Jgn dilihat pada cantik ayu wajahnya semata-mata. Lihatlah pada sepasang indah mata miliknya. Andai tidak redup menunuduk pandangan, fikirlah semasaknya andai ingin terus menyunting dirinya. Khuatir bila sudah bersuami matanya masih terus meliar memandang segak rupa lelaki lain yang bukan bernama suami.

Untuk hawa.
Andai mahu menerima cinta adam.

1. Jgn dilihat pada kereta mewahnya semata-mata. Lihatlah pd aktiviti malamnya, andai liar hidupnya tika malam menjelma, fikirlah sebaiknya andai mahu menerima. Kerana maksiat itu lebih mudah tatkala kelam malam sudah tiba. Khuatir juga subuhnya terus leka dibuai mimpi nan indah.

2. Jgn dilihat pada pakaian berjenama semata-mata. Lihatlah pada bahagian kakinya. Andai mudah lututnya ditayangkan tatkala lincah dipadang bola, fikirlah sebaiknya andai masih mahu menerima, kerana aurat suami itu hanya selayaknya dilihat oleh si isteri.

3. Jgn dilihat pada tampan paras semata-mata. Lihatlah pada mulutnya tatkala berbicara. Andai dia mudah menghambur carutan dan sumpah seranah, fikirlah sebaiknya andai masih tegar memilihnya, khuatir pabila bersama kelak, kesalahan kecil anda akan menerima hamburan cacian yang menyeksakan.

Lelaki dan wanita hari ini tidak lagi seperti mereka yang dahulu. Sebelum ini, wanita berhijab itu sesungguhnya mmg mulia zahir batinnya tetapi hari ini, mereka yang bertudung barangkali hanya utk menyembunyikan kelemahan diri. Begitulah juga sang lelaki, kadang-kala berkopiah. Dari mata nampak sungguh alim tetapi dlm hatinya? Siapa yang tahu.

Sekadar renungan bersama.

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Regret and Mistakes.

2011-04-20T09:03:00.000+08:00

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Sometimes we know we shouldn't and thats exactly why we do.

She Cry Only When Nobody's Around

2011-04-19T08:59:00.000+08:00

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Why it is so easy for us to judge people? I was that someone before. You know, whenever I saw something that I don't like, I'll judge them without knowing the real problem. I guess now, I realized I am wrong. For example;

The moment when you see a girl/boy leave their bf/gf. You must be thinking, "Ouh, he/she is so bad. How could he/she leave them like that." And so much more speculation. But I tell you what, there must be a reason. You don't know how they cried at night on their bed thinking about what they've done. You don't know how they really feel; guilt, regret, mad or even sad. Don't simply judge people.
The moment when you see a person who doesn't wear hijab or wear something sexy. You'll think, "She never perform the prayer. She is 'wild. Go to the club." Maybe it is true, but maybe not. Maybe they just need guidance. I would like to share something; One day, I saw a women. She wore something inappropriate but the thing is she walk into the surau and pray. Get it? :)
The moment when you see someone who doesn't like to talk, very quiet and never socialize. You must be thinking, "She's a snobbish. She never talk to us." Or "She's a weirdo. She's anti-social. I don't wanna be friend with her." I mean, come on. maybe she's just shy to talk to you, talk to her first. Maybe all her life, her parents doesn't allowed her to go outside and make friends, that's why she's awkward. Maybe she doesn't have self confidence in herself, that's why she's scared to stand out in the crowd. You know what I'm saying?

I used that kind of person that judge people right away. And now I'm thinking, how would they feel to be judge? How would they feel to be isolated? What I've done to them. I feel bad. Really bad. So, please, change ourselves. Be better.

What Did I Do Wrong?

2011-04-13T08:19:00.000+08:00

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Remember when I said I wanna pursue my studies in France for 3 years. Then, I'll become a teacher/lecturer? Well, it's never gonna happen now. It's all screwed up. I didn't make it to the interview.

Allah, please let me know what you're actually planning for me because I can't really figure it out right now. Is it a bad future or a nice one?

You Can Ask Me Anything If You Want

2011-04-12T10:07:00.000+08:00

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Someone asked me what's my 11:11 wish and I post this in her askbox (Tumblr) ;

"My 11:11 wish: I wish he'll be mine one day. And he will realize how much I loved him for the past 3 years. I'm kinda tired of waiting now."

She replied;

"You should tell him how you feel. What if he loved you back?
I’m sorry, sometimes things are worth the wait though!"

But I'm scared.

Anyway, an anonymous post this in my askbox (in Tumblr). I don't understand why he/she give me the month June. I mean I was not born in that month. But when I think back, maybe this anonymous wants me to know about a person who was born in this particular month. Maybe. Just saying :)

"JUNE =FINEASS
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover."

Dear anonymous, now I know. Thanks a lot♥

The Final Goodbye cries

2011-04-09T08:18:00.000+08:00

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Why do you hate me so much? Why you treat me like this? Did you forget about everything we had?

For your information, I still love you. I remember our memories every second of my life. Sometimes, when my phone vibrate I became so excited but when it's not your name that appear on the screen, I was disappointed. My phone doesn't have any use at the moment. No one text me all day long long, no one call me late at night just 'cause they miss my voice, no one send me long, sweet and cute text messages when I wake up in the morning, no one randomly text me just to let me know that they love me and no one text me and tell me that I'm beautiful. Not anymore. Just so you know, I still miss you.

But, I just can't see us together at the moment. There's a lot for me to learn about the outside world. I'm not ready for starting a lovelife. Remember when you told me the secret the other day? My heart was devastated. I couldn't believe that you lied to me. Since then, my feelings towards you somehow fade away. I don't know why. Maybe Allah did that to me 'cause He wants the best for me. I really hope you understand.

Please take care of yourself, don't do stupid things and keep praying to Allah. I pray for your happiness 5 times a day just so you know. I'm sorry for crushing your heart into pieces, I'm sorry for all the mistakes that I've done to you. Thank you for the most beautiful and happy 3 months of my life. I really enjoyed it. Au revoir.

This Sucks.

2011-04-08T14:43:00.000+08:00

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I remember when I didn't reply your 'iloveyou'(s), you always say, "Hey, you don't love me anymore?" And now you're saying that all this while I've been telling you lies? Please. Can't you see that I've been trying not to hurt you? Think again.

Face The Fact That I'm Not Yours Anymore

2011-04-08T08:46:00.000+08:00

For the last few days I've learned a few things;

People come and people go.
When troubles happen and people are backing off, you still have your family with their full support and love.
Somebody make me realized that I am a coward.

A lot of things had happened and to be honest with you, I don't actually know how to handle it. I just pray to Allah and let Him decide what's the best for me. First point, I realized that no one ever stick around. Even your best buddies will leave you someday and when you meet up one day, there's nothing to talk about and you guys look like a total strangers. I hate that 'cause I wish I don't change myself.

Second point, when sadness come around and you knew that it caused by you, people blamed you for everything. And you are willing to take the blame. You cry and cry and cry. You wait for somebody to heave in sight but no one did. This depression is out of control. Then, you walk out your room, join your family, you'll realize how happy you are, how they make you smile and laugh. It's like they know what you've been through. That's family.

Third point, A coward. Such a strong word. But yeah, that's who I am. I never realize that until someone told me that. I guess sometimes in life, you have to be a coward to figure out what's best for you. You just watched it from a far and see if you got the chance or not. If not, better move on. Hiding behind the bushes isn't easy you know. You got hurt, jealous but you still stay there 'cause you don't want anybody to see you stalking them. And that's how I feel.

I'm tired. *Play the mp3* Ouh, sorry. Bye :)

April is a beautiful name.

2011-04-05T16:35:00.000+08:00

You better be good.

Aku Cinta Kamu, Ya Allah.

2011-04-04T17:02:00.000+08:00

Kadang-kadang dalam hidup ni kita tak sedar yang kita tak pernah bersyukur dengan apa yang Allah anugerahkan kepada kita.

Kita menangis dan mengatakan yang kita bosan dengan hidup kita. Tapi cuba kita bayangkan pesakit kanser yang sedang menghitung hari untuk pergi bertemu Allah. Rasa-rasanya apa perasaan mereka?
Kita selalu bengang dengan ibu bapa kita. Kita cakap diorang asyik membebel lah, suka mengarah buat itu buat ini, tak memahami kita. Tapi cuba kita bayangkan anak yatim piatu yang teringin nak merasa kasih sayang ibu bapa mereka. Yang teringin nak dengar bebelan ibu mereka. Rasa-rasanya dia sedih tak?
Kita selalu mengeluh nak pergi sekolah. Lagi-lagi bila kena bangun pagi. Belajar pun malas. Tapi duit ibu bapa keluar bukan main banyak lagi nak bagi kita hidup senang. Cuba bayangkan anak-anak kecil yang terpaksa kerja pada umur yang muda, yang terpaksa berhenti sekolah sebab ibu bapa tak mampu, dan ada juga yang kerja sebab nak tanggung ibu bapa yang sakit. Korang rasa diorang tak teringin nak belajar?

Kesimpulannya, daripada kita terus menangis, kecewa, mengeluh atau marah, baik kita bersyukur kepada Allah sebab memberikan kita kehidupan yang cukup sempurna. Sihat tubuh badan, ada rumah yang selesa untuk tidur, ada duit yang cukup untuk makan, masih dapat tersenyum dan ketawa, dan sebagainya. Hargailah apa yang ada di depan mata kita sebelum ianya hilang dari pandangan mata. Akhir kata,

Ucaplah alhamdulillah kepada setiap nikmat yang Allah berikan.

Sweetest Thing

2011-04-01T17:00:00.000+08:00

Do read this :')

Apabila Lelaki Kehilangan Tulang Rusuk

ps. Got this from Atiya Embok FB. Hee. Thnks Tyaa for sharing :)

Allah knows it all.

2011-04-01T11:43:00.000+08:00

“Allah lah yang memegang hati itu.
Andai hati itu terluka, ingatkan ia tentang Penyembuhnya, agar Dia titipkan penawar bisa.
Andai hati itu kecewa, ingatkan ia tentang Pelindungnya, agar Dia usirkan segala duka.
Andai hati itu terpalit dosa, ingatkan ia tentang Pengampunnya, agar Dia bersihkan debu noda. Andai hati itu gundah gulana, ingatkan ia tentang Pentadbirnya, agar Dia hembuskan tenang ke dada.”
— (via tersenyum-melihat-langit)

Hi. J'ai 5 ans.

2011-04-01T08:50:00.000+08:00

I miss being a little kid. Running around, don't care about anything. Everything you do will never go wrong 'cause you're always right. Even when you make a mistake, your parents will say, "That's okay. You'll learn from your mistakes." OR "She's just a child. She doesn't understand anything." When you cry, everybody cares, everybody try to cheer you up. They give you chocolate, sweet and sometimes some silly jokes that somehow makes you laugh.

I miss being held by my dad. I miss his hug. Everything I wanted to eat, he'll stop by and buy some for me. He'll do everything for me back then. I miss when there were days where my mom used to take care of me when I was sick. I miss when she asked me about my day after school. I miss when she care when she knows there's something wrong.

And now, can I go back in time and be the little sweet child that everyone loves?

The End.

2011-03-31T12:37:00.000+08:00

I really did love you, I still do; but I cannot see us together again, even though you're changing, that doesn't matter at all anymore. It's just not gonna work. I'm sorry.

My Personal Taste

2011-03-30T09:13:00.000+08:00

Honestly, I'm a big fan of Korean drama. I mean I'm not like those girls/guys that listen to every K-Pop songs, knows everything about their idol, you know those kind of thing. Well, I'm not. But I do really like those Korean drama. (Okay mesti kau tak faham. Takpe, lupakan.)

What I like about Korean dramas, are their stories, their cute funny unbelievable stories that we don't really expect it to happen in real life. Each one of it is really unique like the guy pretend to be gay, the snobbish guy fall in love with a weird girl, a handsome guy fall for a fat women, or what so ever.

What I like the most about it is the way the guy treat the lady. It's really sweet. Really adorable. I mean I've been dreaming of a cute guy that would ever like me and do all those sweet things to me since forever. (HAHA) But nahh, who am I to dream about those kind of things. And in Korean drama, the hero is so perfect. He is handsome, tall, great sense of style, really sweet, understanding, protective. In one word, he is perfect.

My point is; Well, yesterday I realize one thing, our life isn't the same as those sweet stories in Korean drama. One day you'll find this cute guy and you really like him but then you'll realize his bad habits. For example, he's a playboy, he's dumb, he's selfish, he don't pay attention to you and so much more. The next day, you'll find a guy with a beautiful personality, he makes you laugh, he care about you, he's sweet but not exactly good looking. Get what I mean?

People aren't perfect. So do you. Now, I'm still trying to say this to myself and convince myself that I'm not in a Korean drama.

I have to wake up and face the reality.

Cut It Out Please.

2011-03-29T09:20:00.000+08:00

Okay, aku dah tak tahan. Minta maaflah banyak-banyak kepada sesiapa yang akan terasa. Tapi tolong lah, hentikanlah update status FB tentang perkara yang terlalu personal atau perkara-perkara yang hanya melibatkan buah hati anda. Geli dah aku ni ha. Nak buka FB pun rasa macam malas je sebab tak nak baca status kau yang bagi aku tersangatlah kurang matang. Sebagai contoh ya;

And for your information, semua status ni drpd orang yang sama -.- K dah, banyak lagi sebenarnya tapi cukuplah ya, aku dah nak termuntah dah ni. Bye !

ps. Macam dia sorang ada boyfriend/girlfriend.